if you’ve been recently diagnosed as autistic or were thinking of phoning the national autistic society (NAS) for any advice, don’t bother. they are shite.

What part of your funds are you donating to the important cause of fighting the continuing abuse of autistic people at the hands of the DWP, PIP assessments, Atos and regional councils? Where is the legal money to help enforce the equality act, how are you helping autistic people claim PIP?

“er. do you want a leaflet on what autism is.”

No, actually I would prefer you do something about the people dying at the hands of these criminals. I would prefer you try and enforce the impotent laws they made to protect us that seem little more than lip service and have no bearing on the reality of everyday discrimination.

“You can try ringing someone else that either can’t help, doesn’t answer or has an out of date phone number on our records”

*facepalm oh. fuck. right. off.

imagine how many fucking leaflets we can send out with this little cash cow

The national autistic society is a backslapping media company that wastes money on bullshit that nobody needs at a time when disabled people are being culled. Their existence is pointless.

I just found out Frank Key is dead. http://hootingyard.org/

that sucks :/

ARP. I simply could not afford basic shelter to house the equipment I have amassed through the internets anymore and I am constantly thrown from place to place. I could no longer do music while on the benefit system because they exert so much pressure its impossible to concentrate so I told them to cram it and I’m going with the begging for cash on the internet route. EDIT: I actually won the court case against them after 1 year and 3 months of whinging by total accident.

I’ve been moved around about 15+ times in the last two years which is terribly unsettling on the psyche, panic inducing i would say. Then this charity called HelpMusiciansUK came along and paid for me to be called autistic by some really expensive people who theorise about the brain but don’t actually know jack. I mean psychologists.

I still havent stopped moving. I still don’t have a stable home and have never really had one after I left my mums house.

A full ten years after I engaged to start an album, I ended up in a caravan in a field in exactly the same place I started in. I gravitate to getting away from noise, i need somewhere like that but not a place that’s damp and mouldy :D Since then theyve thrown me into a YMCA, a basement, and now a temporary flat.

theres shit all but whinging about autistic discrimination and housing going on with this website but music is going on over at 100mountains

In another breathtakingly incompetent and what I would consider abusive move, the Highland Council once again prove that they are complete fuds that are still waiting to evolve thumbs.

I live in a caravan in a field and the council just sent me a bill for 880 pounds for 6 months of water and council tax. that is around 5 x the entire rent the individuals who live in the house here pay for the entire year and twice the total amount of benefits universal credit would give me had I not told them to shove their disabled-culling neolioberal neo-nazi bullshit.

Cut to scene:

Woman with large breasts walks into her doctors appointment.

Doctor:

“OMFG mate yee got two fucking massive lumps on ye chest, ye probably have chest cancer. With lumps that size I give ye aboot 2 ‘oors to live, I’m going to have to call an ambulance reet noo.”

“Oh hold on, you’re not female are you?”

Councils love to make noises about how they help disadvantaged people – obviously over here in the real world they couldn’t give less of a fuck unless it affects their cushy little number. We recently complained about someone in the Highland Council employ who thought it was funny we are autistic. Here is Ms. McKandles breathtakingly incompetent investigation into our complaint of discrimination against Holly Hartley of Scott and Co:

She got someone else to phone and ask them if they did anything wrong.

They said no.

End of the investigation.

Yes that’s right, you just read a one-sentence discrimination investigation

Are you joking????? This reminds me of an IDF investigation. What qualifications does this person have to investigate discrimination cases ? This is outrageous.

And now the Highland council just called us liars :/

Why do the highland council exist ? What are they for ? What planet are they on? Making a disabled person on benefits pay 5 times their yearly rent in council tax for zero services seems to me to be ludicrous to the point of abuse.

My partner inherited the croft from her father who was killed on the road the council refuse to put a crossing on, it was empty for a long time because of inertia and the fact it was uninhabitable (no kitchen, bathroom, hot water or heating) yet they want 5 times the years rent in payments and 200% of the council tax for the time it was empty. This is a surcharge for disability. GTFO.

Ms McKandle fudwit or whatever her name is also fails to realise during the entire letter that she is investigating a case involving a disclosure of autism in 2015, and in the same letter says – oh we didnt know till 2018. She then goes on to make no mention of the disability exemption which should have been applied.

We all know that all councils are totally useless. all of them fuck everything up all the time, if you don’t fill in the correct form they literally cannot function. They want huge amounts of money from you for doing nothing, and as far as I can see the only useful function they serve is picking up waste, it seems to me they could just be replaced with a waste company.

You know how the say the cream rises to the top? Well so do turds. The Highland Council rises above other councils in terms of the dizzying heights they have achieved in incompetence.

We sat down and brainstormed what it is the council do, this is all the stuff we could think of:

With the current management of the highland council, one can imagine whale-inclusive schools, where they teach dolphin and whale clicks and farts to 6 year old kids while they grind up the bones of disabled children into a powder that they snort in their HQ’s basement.

Dolphin is really important to learn if you want to be a smack addict that can’t get a job on an oil rig.

You can just imagine the kids sitting there now being corrected on their dolphin fart noises. In fact, dolphin is actually more useful than garlic, there are way way more sentient beings you can converse with in dolphin than garlic. A dolphin is also more likely to give you a job than anyone who speaks garlic as dolphin pleasuring is a burgeoning industry atm what with the whole climate awareness thing.

As only 0.6% of the population use garlic you would think that it would not be a great priority, considering we are living in this age of the fake austerity meme where disabled people are still paying for the greed and failure of bankers and their cocaine habits. But no. Garlic is more important. tbh i thought it was something you put in spaghetti.

Roads

The highland council are definitely supposed to be responsible for roads. it says so on their website. Just not any roads anywhere near us.

According to one of their robot drones on the phone – it is really difficult to put a road sign up and our village has cars speeding by at ridiculous speeds constantly.

It seems the fact that the death of my partners father and the next door neighbours father on the same road is not reason enough to build a crossing across a national speed limit carriageway – which is what we have to cross if we wanted to go to the shop or send my partners child to the local school.

It is not enough that my partners autistic child has to regularly walk down this road with no pavement and cross the national speed limit 4 lane carriageway with two junctions coming off it.

It’s also not enough that we cant even let our pet out without huge anxiety because of the reckless and illegal driving of the crusty old fuds in this area. no offence crusty old fuds.

What would be enough ? Would a whole busload of people have to die for it to become a priority ? We wonder what the death count would have to be before something is done ? 30? 40 people dead ? What is it ?

This letter arrived yesterday. It is a perfect example of a letter you should not send to an autistic person and its worth writing why.

YOU WILL BE EXTERMINATED – THIS RED INDICATES YOUR BLOOD

This is the kind of thing that can ruin your day, and physiologically change you within seconds. Even the act of the letter arriving can cause a panic attack. The worry it inspires delays opening it. Putting it off makes you even more anxious about what’s inside. It might be something that you have put off due to inertia that you are going to be punished for. Whatever it is, its probably the worst :/

Then after all that worry and anxiety you work up the courage to rip it open and its just the BBC begging for cash for their biased bullshit. They must spend a lot of money sending all these full colour letters out, they have sent me hundreds in the 25 years I haven’t had a TV. Never answered one of these, now I am answering for my family.

STATUS: UNDER INVESTIGATION – Seriously? Fuck You.

“The Public Purposes of the BBC are as follows.

1) To provide impartial news and information to help people understand and engage with the world around them: the BBC should provide duly accurate and impartial news, current affairs and factual programming to build people’s understanding of all parts of the United Kingdom and of the wider world…”

The BBC’s utter codswallop

The BBC, the channel that is basically a huge advertisement for the State and directly involved in the new rise of the right-wing / neoliberal / suicidal lunacy that has caused so much hardship for autists and other disabled people. Why the fuck would we want to pay for their propaganda? One wonders for the sanity of these people and it’s me that’s classed as having a mental ‘disorder’.

In fact, the bias thing is interesting as both left and right claim bias, somewhat validly in my opinion. The BBC is the mouthpiece of the British State. The State is neither right nor left as those are simply convenient tropes to manipulate the masses. They are totally run by, and for the British Oligarchs / Elites / Rulers – the people who actually have power in the State. In other words, money talks, peasants die.

There’s a reason I dumped my TV 25 years ago. It was triggered by a book called Amusing Ourselves to death by Neil Postman, a previous student of Marshall Mcluhan. I see it like a laymans, more digestible form of some of the ideas expressed in ‘Understanding Media‘. Despite the religious overtones some exceptional points are raised that literally made me throw my TV out immediately afterwards.

Here is my message to the BBC licence robots:

Your constant threats to leverage violence, anxiety and force your way into our home to check whether we watch your utter propaganda shit is discriminatory and completely hypocritical. You have broken your own charter and thereby the law and you then start trying to use the same law to profit from harassing disabled people. Don’t wave your fucking double standards in my face.

Here’s a quick list off the top of my head of ways you have broken your own charter. Once you start doing actual journalism I would consider paying for your service. I do not see this happening at any point ever.

The BBC want to be funded by me ? I would rather bungee jump off St. Pauls with my own intestines. GTFO.

my first PIP assessment

original article from 2018 (before my diagnosis) about this drew 5k+ shares in a few weeks. the shocking negligence of atos is explained here in Disability News.

Atos give commission on each assessment completed.

I recently tried to get help because I cry a n unnatural amount about my dogs (I lost 7 dogs at the same time and it makes me want to scoop my eyeballs out with spoons), I want to top myself and I hate the human race, I think I’m also slightly autistic in some way (undiagnosed because i keep getting abused) and hyper-sensitive to noise. I’m just generally mental I suppose you could call it. luckily help was at hand from PIP!

(I believe I was suffering from PTSD which I have managed to doggedly suppress now after about two years. the memories feel like hand grenades in my soul. i avoid them at all costs and quickly walk away from anyone who mentions dogs)

In the first line of the ten pages i wrote explaining my problems it says ‘ every time I ask for help I keep getting abused’ – and unfortunately this was no different. here’s the recording of me going to get help.

After i spent 3 days writing up a report of my lifes problems which could be summarised in an hour (lol) i asked them to come over to my house to see the soundproofing i built around my bed so I could show them i am hyper-sensitive to noise. I said I got anxious about things as well and generally didnt go out, they said they didn’t care and they wouldn’t come. ok fine. in order to make the appointment I had to stay up because i was so anxious about it. i sat and waited 11 hours watching shit on TV waiting for the appointment time, by the time it came I was knackered. took the 45 min bus ride, spending 50% of my net worth on that lol and when i arrived half hour early thinking i would have plenty of time for everything they said they wouldn’t be able to do the appointment for another 1 hour 15 minutes as they were running late. I sat there for an hour then asked – what’s going on. Well, you can hear the rest. I was abused, shown no compassion or respect whatsoever, was not even asked what my problems were.

Then when they tried to deny something they just said a minute previous I informed them I recorded it. They looked angry and told me that its illegal, despite recording me on CCTV at that very moment and every time I phone them without my permission. I phoned the police and asked them, they said its fine, its not illegal. It’s a civil matter if the person doesn’t like the recording being released. so whoever these people are – sue me if you dont like it – by the time you do it will already be plastered all over the internet and I’ve sent it out to everyone I know and twitter. so far its received over 1000 RT’s, many outraged comments from people and I have heard from so many people in the same position.

This whole thing was a big deal for me and many other people asking for help.

Atos are also deliberately lying about whether it is legal to record an assessment and that’s quite apart from the abject lack of compassion and negligence. When confronted with this on the phone (not recorded) they continued to assert it was illegal, despite me saying I just got off the phone asking the police about it.

I’m going to go with what the police told me at 13.29 on the 26th of October 2018 as the most accurate piece of information out of the two which seems reasonable to me.

here is the recording of the actual assessment:

IT IS NOT OK TO DOWNLOAD THIS!!! – this is personal enough as it is so here it stays nowhere else please ta.

I’m still trying to figure out what i actually got thrown out for and the complaint about the behaviour has not even been answered (update: almost one year later the complaint still has not been answered). When it had 5k+ shares I had a special person allocated to me, when I got overloaded with that account and deleted it, the person disappeared and they stopped answering my messages.

One person says I am confrontational, you can hear it and make up your own mind as to whether my calm questions are such. (that person was not present for the 2 minute interview and based that judgement on me asking ‘how long its going to be before someone sees me’ after missing their appointment time by an hour)

The other person says its the way I ‘presented’ myself. (that person was not present for the 2 minute interview) – I now realise what they were actually doing is asking me to stop being autistic in a place supposedly designed to help people with disabilities.

In the one place you might think you could let your anxiety actually out because you are with a supposed professional – nope! you’re not allowed to be mentally ill in a centre to assess mental illness. I knew it was bad but this is a whole nother level. The only thing i can think of is they were trying to get me out because they were behind schedule as mad as it sounds, or perhaps there is some secret directive ala the recent universal credit whistleblower.

at no point did anyone ask me what was the matter with me :(

I want to thank the pip consultation centre in Leeds for the wonderful experience of trying not to cry in front of all the old people on the 45 minute bus journey home.

You wonder how the hell they are equipped to deal with psychotic people who properly kick off if they start to freak out over my perfectly reasonable questions. tbh they sounded more mentally ill than me on the tape.

Finally, I will end this with the first paragraph of the semi-prophetic clump of paper I had in my pocket while the audio was recording. It’s a 10 page long description of my problems which I now realise they were completely uninterested in. oops got political at the end!

this guide is also applicable to other institutions that claim authority through the threat of torture, violence or starvation.

Hi. My name is Kris. I am a late diagnosis autist with special powers. This document is the result of many years of misunderstandings and misconceptions regarding my words and actions. My personal problems mainly stem around communication, sensory noise issues and PDA.

Discrimination against autists is rampant at all levels. Nobody even knows what autism is and nobody gives a fuck. A diagnosis is just a ticket to more demands you don’t want. Try and get help they tell you. You later find that help doesn’t exist. Whether diagnosed or not, as an autistic you are more at risk of violence, being locked up or even sectioned for simply being autistic. So-called high-functioning autistics are 9x more likely to commit suicide.

Reading the autistic communities horror stories about untrained police locking up autistic people and the DVLA fining you £1000 if you don’t tell them you are autistic was my first experience of post-diagnosis life.

When I hit rock bottom for the 1000th time, I finally asked for help from the doctor. They treated me in such an appalling manner it caused a meltdown (with additional throat cancer anxiety). I thought the PIP benefit system was the way I would finally get to see someone who properly knew what they were on about. I was sure once I detailed my symptoms they would notice there was definitely something wrong and get me straight onto a professional psychologist. The ten page document I wrote never even came out of my pocket. This is what happened. I was so incensed I uploaded the recording. It caused a news article: *facepalm

https://www.disabilitynewsservice.com/atos-threatens-to-call-police-after-claimant-questions-pip-assessors-mental-health-training/

I later learned there are no doctors at PIP. They call them ‘health professionals’ now which could basically mean you are seeing a failed physiotherapist about autism, which I would call criminally negligent. This is not an exaggerated metaphor, this is an actual real-world example from one of the 100’s of horror stories I have heard since sharing the recording of Atos.

Your mental state examination showed you had a normal facial expression.

Independent Assessment Services (PIP) special X-Ray mental health scan

This would be absolutely hilarious if it wasn’t me they were talking about. As part of a Mitchell and Webb sketch I can really see it working.

So in short: no. help. whatsoever.

In the short time I have been diagnosed I have noticed similarities in traits, thought processes and problems with other autistic people on the internet. These seem to vary in many ways across the ‘spectrum’ but here are some points I noticed in other autistics that it is important the DWP and the neuro-typical in general understands and it will lead to greater harmony between us. And the eventual destruction of your kind. Just Kidding.

When we encounter these problems, it is not merely a case of something we don’t like a bit, like an NT preference, the anxiety we face is NOTHING LIKE YOURS, it is all-encompassing and precludes a normal existence. To say it is like yours is discrimination. The psychologist described it like living on an ‘anxiety scale’, you are OK when you are lower down the scale, but when it hits the top the inevitable meltdowns occur.

A meltdown is what happens when you hit the top of the anxiety scale. Some of the problems listed above drive us further up this scale in different ways according to different people. Meltdowns are expressed in different ways which may appear as confrontational or challenging behaviours to the neuro-typical / non-autistic person. These are in fact, defensive, reactive behaviours due to our sensory environment, social interaction, anxiety and past experiences. Once a Meltdown occurs, altho some autists may have specific ways to exit, the event itself is immutable. The NT mind and corporate world is seemingly unable to cope in any way at all with Meltdowns and seems to deliberately want to cause them. We would like this to stop please.

By understanding how it is triggered, you can understand the behaviour and react accordingly. Increasing the pressure on an autist, using force or pushing the issue is the very very very very last thing you should do, especially during a Meltdown.

Increasingly it seems expressions of emotion are penalised and using swear words (common emotive words) can be filed under ‘aggressive’, ‘threatening’ or even ‘violent’ by the state. Take my example; After what I would call two years of just plain torture, I called the DWP Nazis and swore by typing letters into my keyboard via a script which repeated it around and around. This shows how rubbish their web application is but never mind that.

This behaviour is not extreme frustration at years of torture but is now re-branded as ‘violent’ in order to drive profits. When I now visit the DWP I have to be behind a glass screen like an accused murderer. Its a petty act and not particularly compatible with an anxiety-based illness as it just increases the likelihood of more Meltdown and similar behaviour.

The DWP followed that up with a letter containing a threat of litigation against my disability saying it would cost me at least 5k in legal costs if I didn’t stop being autistic. This is also not ideal anxiety wise for the autist, but I am willing to attempt to prove in court that the current ideology of the right wing is so similar to Nazism as to be worthy of assuming the name. Even the current geopolitical and economic situation is quite similar to the 1940’s.

Because saying the word fuck is much worse than acting out the word Nazi

my best mate

Conversely if the state fails in its duty of care to the people, there is no database box which we can tick to penalise it. not even the voting system which is being tirelessly manipulated by our press and god knows what external and internal interests. not even if it completely ignores our cries for help, not even if it starves and kills us, not even if it breaks all criminal and moral laws to do so, not even if it is slated by the UN, not even if it is held in contempt of parliament, not even if it tanks the entire country. no. come. back. whatsoever.

The world is designed mostly by business, with the increasing pressure to ‘corporatise’ existence now valuing profit over human life and with outrageous cuts and a shift to a database driven environment that limits human behaviour to an extremely narrow band of neuro-typical reactions. This discriminates against autists, seeing as their brains do not work in the same way as the people responsible for making this abomination of a system. It seems the word ‘neuro-typical’ was invented simply because people are so bigoted they have to create a whole special word to remind them not to be.

Autistic people with well-developed masks may do better in certain situations compared to autistics without masking skills. Still, masking may come with a heavy cost, leading to physical exhaustion, anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, and burnout. The mask can breed self-loathing, leading the wearer to believe the unmasked person is somehow damaged, flawed, or broken.

Christa Holmans – Neurodivergent Rebel

There is a total lack of training on autism pretty much everywhere and we are a significant portion of the population :/ I have highly developed masks for different situations. Using them is boring. I prefer to be myself.

One fascinating consequence of my identification as an autistic person is that I can now tell when I’m launching into social adaptations that go beyond the me I’m more comfortable with. There must be shades of masking, gradations if you will. Some late diagnosed autistic writers I’ve encountered (via blogging) write about the difficulty in knowing where the line is between the adaptations they’ve learned and the ‘authentic self’. Articulate and deeply intelligent beings they often conclude that there is no such line.

Sonia Boue

The word ‘actually’ (as in the #actuallyautistic tag on twitter) is used by autists because people keep mistaking us for and treating us the same as NT’s. it means YES our brains are actually different to yours. In some ways they are better, but they are terrible at navigating the world made by your brains. In some ways the world you have created is diametrically opposed to how we are. the constant demands are particularly difficult as many of us experience PDA and have difficultly with the large amounts of petty and meaningless tasks that are part of normal modern living and don’t even need to exist.

What would happen if the autism gene was eliminated from the gene pool? You would have a bunch of people standing around in a cave, chatting and socializing and not getting anything done.

Temple Grandin

I could take many examples, from the NHS, private companies mental health assessments, there are numerous cases of abuse, far too many to list here. Most of the examples could be perhaps summarised by a failure to conform to current discriminatory and criminal law and a deep disdain for human life over profit. Treating humans as corporate SQL database entries is in my opinion not an avenue we should be travelling down. The PIP and other government assessments do not cater for autists at all and are criminally negligent.

This all boils down to the fact that at some point someone, somewhere thought it was a good idea to apply the working principles of large corporations to human beings, What has resulted is a devastating catastrophe that is killing many people and shames the UK. Lets stop doing that.

The very notion you can have a word which ‘offends’ is in itself dumb, like the human race. I like to think of us as more evolved than that but we aren’t, its just me. After the burden of an ASD diagnosis I remembered a t-shirt I had made for a school trip which simply said ‘FUCKOFF’. I have always wanted everyone to fuckoff, and I have always loved swearing. When the internet was invented and you could go on and tell people you don’t know to fuckoff I was absolutely delighted.

ahh those were the days, I remember myself and an old friend scrolling through a usenet group insulting Hardly Davidson riders, crying with laughter. I miss that guy.

look, the prime minister just said shit in parliament

everyone swears, every day.

for some odd reason all the people i know who are extremely good at computer security swear. e.g. my friends wifi network name is ‘cunt’, he works for large companies, the government etc and then there’s this other guys password which is ‘cuntcuntcuntcuntcunt’ thats 5 cunts. he always says that every time anyone asks him the wifi password. shit should i have mentioned that? oh soz :D youll just have to guess which wifi network it is out of the millions in the UK. good exercise. off you go.

People who swear are more honest says the independent, a more rounded, intelligent view is here. I am of the less ‘socially acceptable’ type ‘brutally honest’ i think. But does this mean I should be excluded from health care or anything else?

People in my life have always encouraged me to swear. Nobody ever tried to stop me swearing or call me violent or aggressive for it up until the new rise of the right-wing. Mostly they just laughed and also used casual high-frequency swearing. Swearing is like a filter, if someone gets offended by the word fuck I don’t want to know them, they are stupid. So that saves me time.

In the beginning social media seemed like a fairy-tale playground for calling all the politicians I hate so much total cunts and at the same time you could have a good old laugh telling religious people how stupid they are. Like the 70s movie airplane, people took it for the good humoured bollocks it was. Nowadays you would be ejected from the site after one post and have people outside your house wanting to club you to death.

The fact is there is an extremely large portion of the population that agrees with me. I know because I’ve met a shitload of them and hardly any of them give a fuck about swearing. Swearing is only bad when a an institution or corporate entity wants to make more money for their shareholders at your expense. The everyday swearing in the media and from celebrities and politicians is all fine and never penalised. Threatening nuclear war on people on the internet is all no worries as well.

The ridiculous corporatisation and homogenisation of everything has led to this situation where speech is now being vigilantly policed, but not because these words are ‘offensive’. People are excluded from society for profit, banned collections of syllables are just a useful tool to generate cash

In fact, some of the most stuck up immoral cunts (many religious) are the ones who find these words offensive (when they need to). Maybe say in the 1950’s or something you could say taking ‘offence’ at words would be a bit different but really, can we get over that one now please, its getting old.

Swearing to me seems nothing more than a ‘hard’ expression of emotion but now because I utter a banned series of syllables I can be arrested or physically abused by the states agents or its private security firms and I can have my healthcare removed. This could now even happen if I *type* those words on a keyboard. It has gotten completely out of control.

Offence is ruining the world and offence at words is the first defence of the abusive state, take this recent example after Phillip Alston absolutely crucified the conservative government in his UN report :

“I was disappointed to say the least by the extraordinary political nature of his language; that sort of language was wholly inappropriate.”

Works and Pensions Secretary Amber Rudd responds to remarks made about poverty in the UK by UN Special Rapporteur Philip Alston.

Amber Rudd was not disappointed that the DWP has failed in its duty of care. not disappointed at the 120,000 deaths since the inception of austerity, not disappointed at the anguish, the despair, not disappointed that many people felt the only answer was to end their life. DISAPPOINTED BY THE LANGUAGE. There’s a decent example of how they do it, deflect from the issue to the language. Everyday feminism puts it quite well in this article and what autistic people face is a similar #EverydayDiscrimination. I wish we could stop living in this dream world of utopian personal ideals and just have a basic rule of law even, and I say that as an anarchist because these people make my life a living hell.

I need actual medication to deal with the systems that have been setup and ruined by capitalists, my life under them feels like torture. thats how bad it is. Without better systems, or even with a really low amount of respect and understanding all that could disappear but I am driven to edges of existence and depths of despair that autistic people shouldn’t have to go down, because people want to make money. There are laws to protect us from exactly this but nobody gives a shit about them. The care system should not rely on people that care to work and at the moment you have to beg the right person to be even noticed (if you are lucky).

in a recent conversation with some Dr Magoo (Dr Unskill i think his name was) at the Pulteney ‘practice’ in Bath I was told i could have a follow-up diagnostic appointment for my autism diagnosis when ‘hell freezes over’. No, I am not joking. He actually said that. That was the like 50th time I have asked for what the NAS refers to as ‘vital’ post diagnosis treatment and it is now 1.5 years after my diagnosis. I still havent even had 30 minutes with anyone bar clueless GPs who want you out of the room ASAP.

Offence at words saves corporate entities money, and its the first thing to attack regardless whether the subject matter is true or not. If I walk into an Atos assessment and call them all cunts, they will throw me out and save the DWP one whole persons benefits payments, a considerable amount of money. They will say I was violent (which they did anyway to me despite being perfectly polite), they will say anything to get more profits. In fact Atos have quadrupled their profits since they started, a job well done. Except until you consider that people had to die for those profits. Should people who swear not have mental health support ? Should impolite people ‘get to the back of the queue’ as one stupid old man once suggested to me ? How would this affect actually psychotic people who are also violent ? Would we leave them to go out and murder people while they wait at the back of the queue ?

It is also worth considering that strong words are mostly based in the lower classes and then used against them. part of the corporatisation of everything means a culling of the poor, or perhaps they view it as a survival of the fittest type thing, an unfortunate side-effect of the transition to a ‘better way’ or some such euphemistic bullshit. It is class war.

I do not swear because of a lack of vocabulary. I swear because I want to express something that I cannot express with other words. e.g. if I am describing American pilots shredding journalists to pieces with 30mm machine gun rounds from a helicopter 1 mile away it is not correct to say the people were inconsiderate or just horrible, terrible people. They were utter fucking bastards, they have no humanity to be able to do that job and that warrants strong words. I do believe that was what they were invented for. I also find the whole idea of offence silly and dangerous. More and more I see it being used against people as an excuse to classify them as violent and negate legitimate concerns. especially with autistic people whose meltdowns and blunt manner can be seen as rude by NT’s.

What we REALLY need is to understand each other. Why do these words come out ? Where do they come from ? What can we do to fix the underlying nature of that problem ? Crying about threats online or trying to legislate against nature is just a waste of time and will get us nowhere. People use strong language and threats online because its the equivalent of throwing an egg at a politician in real life. I understand there is an effort to frame these things as the most outrageous and disgusting thing ever to happen, but the fact is people also live in reality and everyone knows everyone swears all the time.

An unfortunate side effect of complaints about ‘online abuse’ is the limiting of discourse. Blaming the internet and TCP/IP for the nature of the human race is the another logic fail that we are being asked to swallow.

In my opinion you can not fix people or their language with software and I think strong words are needed. Why not spend the software development money making people less fucking stupid instead? Instead of making a surveillance state lets stop ruining other countries and murdering millions. Instead of making out like everyone who insults some relatively well-known politician is going to kill them, lets stop having politicians who want to kill us. Deal with the root cause, don’t put a fucking band aid on a major neck wound.

This is my website and you agreed to the legal small print on the about page when entering it. I will now use the word cunt.

cunt.

feel that moist freedom.

non-physical interactions with the state classified as ‘violent’ and ‘threatening’.

Autists are violent and abusive because we don’t regulate our words correctly for neuro-typical people. This was never about anything physical, I have never been remotely physical towards any of these people, its all about re-branding words that come out of your mouth into tone-policing and framing you as abusive. Even seeming ‘passive-aggressive’ and ‘irritable’ is now cause to deny you disabled benefits. From an autistic point of view this is breathtakingly ludicrous.

They are committed to making my life torture that’s what they are committed to. Lying motherfuckers! At the beginning I threatened someone, and then in the next paragraph I was just rude. So which was it ? I treat those guys in a much nicer way than they treat me. They are actually trying to kill me and many other disabled people and all I do is say the odd rude thing with swears in. Threatening means (to them) that you say you are being discriminated against and you will report them to equality commission. In one case they got some woman (I have no idea nor do i care who the fuck she is) making up this bullshit about how i had made her afraid and that her kids went to school near me and that I was a risk. what. the. fuck. you cant even tell who is behind the screen, any old cunt could answer your message, i don’t even know who the fuck she is I found her emails through an FOI request. Why would I go out and physically harm someone, I can hardly walk ffs. All this shit is collected so the DWP can make more money by excluding me and making up bizarre fantasies like I’m going to go to some random unknown kids school I’ve never seen to hurt them. wow. real nice accusation but another unsurprising attack from the DWP because they don’t like my words.

DWP again trying to police what I say after they abuse me.

I would not complete security questions, so…. how do they know its me !? Fuck your security questions.

DWP doing an impression of Brazil by Stanley Kubrick
i pose a threat a physical threat with my naughty words.

they are committed to treating me in a fair and polite manner while they kill me. well, that’s nice isn’t it. tbh pretty much the only thing i have to say to these people are fuck yourselves.

Bournemouth council, the council that is supposed to have protected me from an abusive landlord who wanted to throw me out within days for asking to fix the cooker. Instead, they saw it as an opportunity to make more money. Jane Yates, head of disabled torture at Bournemouth council was most pleased to hear of this and promptly charged me more council tax for leaving the property empty. I left the property in fear of an abusive landlord to a friends house. I wish i could say this was unusual.

I’ve got loads of these letters. Hey they even threatened to litigate against me for daring to respond to their torture. When I say torture I mean actual torture (under the UN definition) and rampant institutional discrimination.

They said if i post swearing on their journal (thats its illegal to force me to go on) again the case they are making could cost me up to 5000 pounds, a lovely letter to send to an autistic person. Dear DWP, Instead of me calling you cunts (in whatever manner i feel on the day), why don’t you stop being nazis who are trying to kill me? Then we would all get along much better. it seems so simple.

What is happening is that I and many others have been failed by the safety net of society, failed by the NHS and then when we are driven to the inevitable point of being really really upset by it they use those words to exclude us even more by framing our meltdowns as aggressive or violent. When you’re at rock bottom and you need help, this is really not very nice to discover.

AKA oppressive tone-policing. Its not nice to live through and we should stop doing it.

stop treating me like a cunt and don’t get called a cunt. its not fucking rocket science is it you bellends.


these dudes charged me 5 times, told me i hadnt been charged and cancelled the ticket.

after the phone call…

i booked a train ticket instead…

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