GUILTY AS CHARGED: INTENT TO SHOP WITH AUTISM
two poor little girls made to cry by a big nasty man. thats me. what could be a more compellingly libellous and damaging image. thats the image alan at my local shop wants to paint of me in front of random shoppers who are shouting fuckoff at me about 3 months after the event. never mind that 3 months ago it was one girl with asthma crying and her friend and now its two girls both with asthma both crying lol.
my crime three months ago that the manager feels its ok to share in front of several people abusing me ? asking two girls without masks on to move away from me.
as we know shopping for autistics at this time is that much worse and some place are making adjustments for us. not the co-op. a few months ago i was shopping in there, looking at a bottom shelf and out of my peripheral vision i noticed something coming fast toward me. as i was on one knee with a hernia i couldnt immediately jump up and run away from them. i falsely believed they would stay 2m away. as i looked up it was two little girls without masks on. when i say little i mean about 13-16 or something. maybe older i dunno. old enough to understand that there is a pandemic going on and that everyone is required to wear a mask inside a shop unless medically unable to.
they continued walking towards me, ignoring the social distancing rule, coming right up to me to breathe on me. wtf. i was surprised, shocked and quite upset they were putting me and the two other people in my bubble at risk. i asked them what they were doing coming so close and why arent they wearing masks. one of them said, ‘i have asthma’ with a barely perceptible smirk, the other remained silent. they were totally lying, but i gave them the benefit of the doubt. i said yeah yeah ok whatever and i asked them to get out of the 2m distance and they did and went round the corner and that was that. i continued my shop, put out of sorts by how ignorant people are and with what effortless ease they put others at risk.
as i turned the corner, alan the ableist manager stopped me and asked me what the hell i said to the two girls. he told me i made the little asthmatic girl cry (no mention of the other girl without a mask). at first i didn’t believe him as there were nothing i said to them that warranted either of them crying over it, this is exactly the thing we fear about going shopping! i immediately went to see what was the matter with the girl, as obviously i dont want to make anyone cry, but at the same time i dont want to die because of their ignorance. the latter being the more important to me personally.
as i went up, maintaining my distance i said ‘hey sorry didnt mean to make you cry, just dont want to get infected’ but neither was crying they were just standing there, fine. i was confused. whether the manager was lying or the girl managed to squeeze out two tears to him and then suddenly look normal is unknown to me.
my friend went into the store to have a word, alan wasnt managing the store well, there was a sign outside saying one in one out which everyone ignored, there were too many people in the shop, nobody was respecting each others social distance and nobody was using the one way system.
there were questions about this ‘asthma’ girl which later became two ‘asthma girls’ even though alan had not heard them say so as he wasnt there. why wasnt this girl i spoke to crying when i saw a few seconds after he said she was. her friend who had not spoken at all during the incident looked fine, the other girl i did speak to looked fine. hmmm. eh.
questions came to mind like: why, if they *both had asthma did they enter the shop together without masks on when the guidelines are for one person? why didnt the other girl say she said asthma as well ? if you have asthma it seems silly to put yourself at risk. my conclusion is the girls didnt have asthma at all, or one of them did and she was just hanging around with her mate oblivious and indifferent to the guidelines and safety of others. and if they did cry it was because of the guilt of their lying or something, not what i said.
i admit i am blunt, as we are known to be (assumed audience: autistics) but the virus doesnt care about that, your feelings or these two girls feelings. if i had not shown symptoms but still had the virus and they caught it from me they could be dead now. i am protecting them and their families as much as i am myself and my bubble. no need to blub, just get the hell away from me if you aint got a mask on!
a few months later – the manager used his fake crying incident in another incident… by this time, both of the girls had asthma and i had made both of these poor little zombie virus infecting redneck chavs cry. what the actual fuck.
unfortunately this backwater scottish place i am in is full of ignorant rednecks. not all but some and they do spoil a nice place.